18. Leaving on a jet plane

So the time that I've long waited for approaches. I'll be making my (hopefully it'll stay) annual trip to Boston for Spring Break to visit old and new friends. I've never been more excited this time around, because not only am I staying longer that I did the last time, but I'll be hanging around a whole new area of Boston and the Massachusetts Bay area that I don't think I ever saw in passing the last time I went.

There are also new acquaintances to meet with too. That's always been a great thing. I've probably mentioned it before and you've definitely seen it before that I take a heavy value on my friendships. They mean a lot to me, mostly because they relate to me and my interests and I don't like to associate myself with people that wouldn't do for me what I would do for them. Obviously this might seem a little crazy, especially if its people I've just met and won't really speak with on a regular basis....but still, good to know more and more people.

And all these new things and people I'm going to see and meet are great too, but then I can't help but get the feelings that people get when they leave things behind. Sure I'll be enjoying myself spending long nights out on the town, playing video games, and just vegging out in the apartment I'll be staying in...but I'll be away from home and my friends down here as well. I don't doubt that they'll make amends without me being there (they always do), but recently we've been spending a lot of time together. Probably very close to almost every day, save a few days for the weekend. Some of them took a weekend trip to Orlando this past weekend and it felt strange to not have them around, even if it was just as a failsafe if plans that I had made went through.

Does this seems to be a little bit emotional of me? I can openly admit that its true. Just because I had set out to make these changes that I specified at the beginning of the year to become a new me, doesn't mean I can't reflect and think as well. It's all a part of the learning and changing process. It doesn't change because we all really do learn something new every day. And that's fine by me. The more I can learn from books, movies, music, and experiences in my future, past, present, the better I can consider myself to be. It's my opinion of myself and mine only that matters, so whatever helps me to make me feel better is nothing but beneficial. I've had plenty of self-esteem issues in the past that I'd like to stay away from for good.

Enough of the contemplation. My flight is now coming later today (technically). I need to be happy about it. And I am, because I spent a night out with my friends and people that care about me. I could never ask for anything more.

To those that I'm leaving behind, I know you'll be fine without me while I'm gone. It would be stupid of me to assume otherwise, and probably even stupid for me to have that thought in the first place.

To my friends that I'm going to visit, here I come! I hope to have the time of my life there once again, so be prepared to take me to places I've never been and to show me the time of my life. I'm ready for it.